Yet Again caught Somewhere in the Middle

God likes to speak to me while I'm running my tail off on the treadmill. I wonder what it is. Does He like to run with me? Or is it that He has my undivided attention because I have no children at my feet and am focused on being a good steward of my body. Whatever it is, He speaks and He speaks powerfully to me during those 30 minutes.

This very day as I was running, He brought me back to a song by Casting Crowns entitled "Somewhere in the Middle". About a year ago, this song came on my IPOD while I was running. I had never heard it before even though it was on my IPOD. Oh my goodness, the words knocked me on my rear. The line that spoke to me the most was "will we trade our dreams for His or are we caught in the middle". Have a listen then keep reading.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mGnJq-av6TY

When I first heard this song, it was all about me trading my dreams for His. That I had to let go and embrace where He had brought me. This was a HUGE lesson for me.

Now as we are heading into a church planting endeavor, the words "reckless abandon wrapped in common sense" have once knocked me on my rear. In addition to "just how close can I get Lord to my surrender without losing all control". WOW!!!

Reckless abandon wrapped in common sense is an oxymoron. But this is what I want. I want the common sense. But if I keep my common sense then there is no reckless abandon to God.

You see I have plans of how this whole transition should go. In my plans, our house should have sold by now since it's been on the market 4 weeks today. We should know where we are going to live in Peoria. And we should have all our ducks in a row when it comes to moving. But God has called me to reckless abandon which is SO SO SO very hard for me. I am a detail oriented person, and He wants me to leave every detail in His hands. RECKLESS ABANDON........

This leads me to the next part of the lyrics "just how close can I get Lord to my surrender without losing all control." I want some control of this process. I don't need to have it all, but I want some. But He says I can't have any...It's all in His hands. Surrender is just that. Throwing up my hands and saying I can't. I give in.

While I ran today, I listened to this song about 4 or 5 times. I've got to get this through my thick skull. No reckless abandon with common sense.

Don't even get me started on the line "the God we want and the God Who is" That could be a whole other post!