I just finished my quiet time with the Lord. I pulled out my journal and began to write to Him that I was struggling to spend time with Him. Not sure why though....as I wrote it came to the surface that I am struggling to believe. I'm struggling to believe that He will get us to Peoria.
Our lives are full of so many unknowns right now which I do not do well with. I begged him for something even just something small to help me feel more peaceful. Then I questioned if I was like the Israelites begging for a king. If you are familiar with the story, God granted their grumbling compliant and they ended up with King Saul who was evil to the core. I don't want to end up like the Israelites. I want good things from the Lord that come in His timing.
I found myself praying the prayer of a man in the New Testament, "Lord, I believe, help me in my unbelief." He has come through every single time for our family. Yet, I struggle to believe because I am human and this is my sinful human condition. I don't want to stay in that condition. I want to be more. I want to be filled with faith. I want to be like Christ!
When we moved to Marshfield, my mom gave me a necklace that has a dove on it. The back of the necklace is inscribed with this "Faith guides us and gives us peace" I have had that necklace on for the past couple of weeks because it reminds me to trust Him. To hold onto His promises. I will most likely be wearing this necklace for a long time :)
Pray with me that He will help me in my unbelief.
Uncertainty is so hard. God is the same, but as our circumstances change, it can be really tough to rest in His timing and promises. I pray that as you are tempted to worry, that you would cast all of your cares upon Him, because He cares for you. Love ya, my friend. Wendy
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